Pink Assistant's Good Friday

I was born and raised Protestant. My mom is religious and my dad just goes with the flow. I can remember going back and forth to a protestant church and an Aglipayan Church. I was confused. I didn't easily understand why we have to switch fromone church to another every other sunday.

It wasn't until I grew up and decided to be a Christian, protestant to be exact. I dont consider myself religous. I would be a hypocrite if I claim to be one. But I remember myself being one. Being active in church and serving God. I was once a choir member, a sunday school teacher, an officer in our Church Youth Organization, a lead singer and dancer in our church band, a soloist, a prayer warrior. I actively attended youth summer camps. I love listening to contemporary Christian songs. I read the Bible every single day.

As I grew older, and life gets busier and hectic, I lost time. I lost the motivation. Aside from the fact that I left church because of personal reasons. Life changed. I can remember that life was better when I was still active. Life's not bad now, but it was indeed better.

Yesterday is Good Friday here in the Philippines. I remember going to church when I was still a kid. Listening to the 7 last words.I remember feeling lonely ever Good Friday, thinking that God died. I remember crying every time I hear the story of Jesus's death. I remember watching people walk under the sun without shoes or slippers as part of their sacrifice. I remember seeing people who hurt them selves and carry their own cross, imitating the pains Jesus felt when he was crucified. I don't understand and I honestly do not agree with that but I respect their beliefs. 

Yesterday, I went to the beach with Kee-kee,not to swim but to reflect. Almost everybody went to church. And here I was standing silently, listening to the waves crash. I thought to myself, I have gone a long way.. life has changed... 

I said a silent prayer, a prayer of forgiveness that despite the changes in life, He's still here with me. And that like the vastness of the ocean, He continously blessed me with overflowing blessings.

I'm no longer religious but I know I have HIM always...